I want to leave this world through suicide?

I'm going through the same ****. I have a part time job which has quotas that I'm not reaching and a car that can't be inspected (gonna be gone july1st) lost my apartment and friends due to some Bit@# lying. Have been shot at by my so~called best friend and losing all hope. I dream of crashing my car before the inspection runs out so I could either be dead or paralized. I just have no fight in me but I'm still here. Id go to a psychiatrist if I had insurance or monney and my family thinks I should just suck it up. The best advice is from my Grandpa who said "hitchhike to California at least you could live on the beach and be warm" aww how nice. Its not like my family is broke the majority of my family ownes many apartments and have great finincial security but they believe one dog one bone BULLSPIT. I don't have any good advise to tell you to not commit suicide except that there will be someone in your family that will miss you and blame their selves so unless you have no heart for the ones that do care DO IT. If you have a heart go talk to someone you can be open and honest with if there's such a person in your life. I don't have that in mine.